The Soundtrack of My Life…

So my office recently moved from the first floor to the sixth floor of my office building, meaning I now have to take the elevator.

Why is it that some people look back when they are getting on the elevator to see if anyone else is coming, but then when they see someone they scurry onto the elevator and hit the ‘door close’ button?  What was the point of looking back and giving me eye contact????  Just don’t look back.  That makes me so mad, especially when I’m close enough to the elevator that it’s almost as if you closed the elevator door in my face!  Bastards!

Plus this is my favorite Biggie videos!

There are times when I feel like no one else in the world gets me and understands what I’m going through. But then I talk to a friend or read one of my favorite blogs and it puts everything in perspective. I’m not the only one having a bad day…I’m not the only one battling the bulge, so to speak…Lord knows I’m not the only one with financial issues…I’m not the only one who puts on a sunny disposition even when things aren’t so sunny…I’m not the only one who doesn’t always like to be alone…

We all go through things, but we all deal with them in different ways. However I am realizing that there are more people like me. We pretend like things are all good because we don’t like to be vulnerable or we think the world needs us to be strong and “together.” It’s when we hit our breaking point — usually something small and routine that doesn’t go the way it normally does — that we lose it. We hope that the people that we give so much of ourselves to will be there for us, but at the same time we don’t want to appear to be weak so we just keep to ourselves…

For the most part I’m a very private person and even though I share many of my thoughts here, I never give every detail of my life. There are times when I’m so emotional and deep in thought that I have to find a way to clear my mind. To tell the truth, my friends don’t really know what’s going on in my head the majority of the time, however, those closest to me know when something’s not quite right. It’s second nature for me to worry about my friends and their well-being, and then one day it hits me — I’ve fixed everything for everyone else, but I’m still a wreck…

I don’t know where I was going when I decided to write this because now that I’ve re-read it, I don’t know if it makes much sense. But I guess I wrote it to say that no matter how tough things may get, no matter how much things seem not to work out for you, no matter how alone you may feel, there is someone else who’s been there or is having the same thoughts and feelings…sometimes that person is who you least expect it to be…

There comes a point in your life when you realize who matters, who never did, who won’t anymore, and who always will. So don’t worry about people from your past, there’s a reason why they didn’t make it to your future.

- Unknown

I was torn on a couple of the answers, that’s why I have two signs. I must say, they are both very similar to me. I’m actually a Libra, so Virgo isn’t too far off.

You Should Be A Virgo

What’s good about you: you have a quiet determination and aren’t swayed by emotions What’s bad about you: you are an insane perfectionist and easily find faults in others In love: you are obsessed with making your partner happy In friendship, you’re: helpful and giving - eager to be a true friend Your ideal job: poet, flight attendant, or natural healer Your sense of fashion: casual, upscale, revealing, conservative - you look good in all of it You like to pig out on: a well prepared five course meal

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You Should Be A Sagittarius

What’s good about you: bold and adventure loving, life is one big party for you What’s bad about you: you don’t think before speaking - and you often regret it! In love: you’re flirtatiously playful, but you never play games In friendship, you’re: the one who keeps everyone laughing Your ideal job: fortune teller, philosopher, or athlete Your sense of fashion: your own mix of vintage and new pieces You like to pig out on: anything you haven’t tried before

Apparently I do. And so do about 13,000 metro Atlantans. Last night, I went to the Atlanta stop on the Glow in The Dark Tour. I took my fresh-21 year old friend Alejandro. (He was super excited because it was his first concert and he’s from Chicago just like Lupe and Kanye!)

It wasn’t my first time seeing Kanye West or Lupe Fiasco in concert, but it was my first time seeing Kanye, Lupe Fiasco and N.E.R.D. all in one night. All I can say is the show was high-energy from start to finish (though I totally missed Rihanna’s set — I was talking with my homeboy Del outside AND I could’ve done without her on the tour anyways…) To my surprise, the show started on time, early even. Lupe Fiasco opened up the show and killed it! He definitely started the night off with a bang. Next was N.E.R.D. — I LOVE them and I’ve never seen them in concert before. To my surprise and delight, right in the middle of “Rockstar” they brought a crew of guys out on stage to wild out…and who was the first guy that I noticed??? None other than my #1 HYT — CHRIS BROWN!!!!! I turned into a groupie for a moment, like in retrospect I should’ve been a tainch embarrassed…dah well! (But CB’s appearance pretty much confirms that he and Rihanna are a couple, why else would he just be backstage?!?!)

Like I said I totally missed Rihanna’s set, but I feel like it was rather short because me and Del started talking when she first came on stage, then all of a sudden we looked up and she was done. It was time to go back in the arena to get ready for Kanye, when me and Alejandro heard a bunch of screaming. Who do we see? First, we saw Quincy Jones and Mary J. Blige. More pandemonium ensues — for Chris Brown and Bow Wow and Omarion who are walking through the crowd to get to the VIP section to watch Kanye’s performance. As we start scanning the crowd, we also notice Jermaine Dupri, Cee-Lo and Dallas Austin.

Kanye came out and killed it! Even though Kanye is an egotistical divo, you can’t knock the brotha’s talent. It was just him on the stage for about an hour and a half…that is until Lupe came out to perform “Touch the Sky” and bust his ASS! (I really tried not to laugh, but it was just too funny because I heard him hit the floor and he just kinda laid there for a hot minute. But he got right back on up and kept going, so kudos to you Lupe for acting like nothing happened!) All in all it was a GREAT show, and well worth the drive to the Gwinnett Arena especially because there wasn’t a bad seat in the house! If the Glow in The Dark Tour comes to your city, please try to get some tickets to check the show…besides you never know who will be in the crowd!

Last night, I went to go see Iron Man (great movie BTW) and they showed a bunch of previews that really have me excited for the Summer Movie Season! Here are the ones that I’m looking forward to:

May 2

Go see it! NOW!

I love a good chick flick, and this looks funny enough to not be too sappy and depressing for me! LOL

May 9

I don’t even have words — I love when a cartoon or show from my childhood gets remade. I just hope that it’s not too computer-y.

May 22

I.LOVE.INDIANA.JONES. And Shia Lebouf is kinda hot…lol.

June 6

The previews look funny as hell and I think Adam Sandler is pretty damn hi-larious!

June 13

I know there was an Incredible Hulk remake a few years ago, but I didn’t want to see it. The Hulk was a cartoon or computer generated which made him look extra fake. After seeing the previews, I can say it looks like they have done a great job of making the Hulk look realistic when he “goes green.”

June 20

It’s Mike Myers in costume. What more do I have to say?

July 2

Another 4th of July weekend blockbuster. I don’t think Will will disappoint us. After all, he’s got a pretty good track record with holiday weekend bangers…

July 18

It’s Heath Ledger’s last movie. As much as I loved Jack Nicholson as the Joker, I’m interested to see how Heath does. Just from the previews, I can tell the Joker’s more psychotic in The Dark Knight and Heath scared me a tad bit in one of the scenes.

Other movies of note:

I didn’t see the first Hellboy, but after seeing the preview for part 2 I think I’m going to have to rent it to catch up to the story.

I absolutely loved The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants, I think I watch it every time it comes on TV.

I can’t lie — I don’t even know what Step Brothers is about. LOL But how can you go wrong with Will Ferrell and John C. Reilly? Did you not see Talledega Nights? That has to be one of my favorite movies!

The Happening looks like it could be an interesting movie.

I know what you’re thinking — I don’t have Sex and the City up there. No, I didn’t forget it. Honestly I didn’t really watch the show, so I’m not so super excited about going to see the movie. But it comes out May 30th. Anyhoo, there are a bunch of other films coming out in the next 3 months, but these are the ones I can’t wait to see.

My cell phone is operating on bootleg right now and in order to pick up the phone I have to use a Bluetooth earpiece…it makes me feel stupid.

I’m hungry.

Now that’s gangsta, but not in a good way. We should all be worried — read here.

“All the girls standing in the line for the bathroom…”

I can’t wait til the Kanye/Lupe/N.E.R.D (I could do without Rihanna) concert on Sunday night!

“Yesterday I saw a big girl cry…”

Why didn’t I go to the management office to get $7 movie tickets before? They are so worth it!

I want some fun, new kicks. I might have to see what I can find online, that’s where all the funnest shoes are!

Man, I can’t believe Sash will be going to Paraguay for 2 years at the end of the month! I’m glad she’s coming down here to visit in a couple of weeks!

“Come on get up…”

I need to make a new mix to listen to in the car…hmm, what should I put on it?

Who knew that Lil Mama and Raven-Symoné’s albums would be good? In a teeny-bop way, of course.

Damn Bluetooth earpiece! GRR